WALNUT CREEK,California: It has been an agonizingly tough week waiting for the jury’s decision. The evidence concerning me is solid and would be difficult to refute since the witnesses, as a panel, determined the accuracy of the facts. I was facing the death penalty unless there was a reverse in the evidence.
FIRST-SOME BACKGROUND INFORMATION: Few people know of the medical issues this writer has endured since being exposed to Mustard Gas while in military service. That gas is deadly. It ravages the organs of the body, in this case, the lungs, the heart and the intestines. Prostrate cancer was a direct result of the mustard gas. I was also left with severe heart problems, as well as the effects of a stroke during which I actually crossed over and was revived.
Even though it has been a challenge to deal with these difficulties, it would be considered lucky to survive mustard gas exposure which is mostly deadly. Two young men right next to me became violently ill, collapsed,with their bodies convulsing, and died. This memory still cannot be overcome…
Two weeks ago, an old intestinal problem blew out of proportion with a trip to the emergency room, then hospitalization. During that time, by accident, a cat-scan exposed a tumor on the pancreas. It was confirmed by a panel of doctors who said it was 2 inches in length. The next Monday a biopsy was performed.
While awaiting results of the biopsy, a battle against extreme tensions began,which I should not be feeling since God specifically told me when I crossed over during my strokes that the ministry He entrusted to me had, ‘just begun.’
And too, a few months ago, he spoke to my heart that this ministry would reach its greatest significance when I am in my 80s, not when I reach that age next month, but IN my 80s. Then I realized that this must be the enemy firing one last shot at me to mentally weaken me.
Saturday morning, before daylight, as I was doing devotions in my office, while Shirley did hers in the living room, The Lord directed me to this passage in Isaiah 41;10; “Fear thou not; For I am with thee; be not dismayed; for I am thy God; I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.”
I suddenly felt convicted for worrying over something that was not of God. When Shirley came in my office, I shared the scripture with her and as I did I could not help but gently weep. That is how it affected me emotionally. The Holy Spirit was showing me the truth of that verse. Wow!
With new mental strength Shirley went with me to receive the verdict this afternoon.
THE VERDICT:—Life Sentence. The doctor said that he wanted to discuss the X-rays with us. The tumor was clearly shown, but when he got in for the biopsy, he said he couldn’t find it. All he found was a tiny cyst which will easily be dealt with. So he scraped samples from my stomach and esophagus. There was no sign of cancer. I was sentenced to continue to fulfill the life given me to serve others. Praise God!